I'm with Shannon on this one for the most part. Make no mistake, I have fucked up a LOT. Yet I have to fall back on that old cliche: my mistakes have made me who I am.
I mentioned in a past post that I chose Utah State because my boyfriend at the time was going here. That was a stupid choice, but it's led to awesome things. I love my classes, my friends and my jobs up here. I couldn't ask for a better college life, something I wouldn't have assumed of Utah State had I casually been perusing schools as a high school senior.
I've failed to take responsibility for myself a lot in the past. When I was in high school I wasn't concerned with getting a real job or learning to drive because I just didn't give a fuck. I was self-absorbed and wrapped up in petty things (a lot of them to do with my ex). I feel like I've grown up a lot in the last year and a half. Though I should have been more of an adult back then, fucking around helped me realize what an idiot I was and made me work twice as hard later.
I'm sure when I'm older I'll regret some aspects of my current lifestyle. Smoking, drinking and sleeping around (not now that I'm with Matt) don't do the body good. But the last time I was cross-faded, I had a vision. I was an old lady whose mind was totally fucked up, not unlike Tommy Chong's character in That '70s Show. Though I wasn't all there, I was incredibly happy. I had led a full life. That's what it's all about (:
"There's only us/There's only this/Forget regret/Or life is yours to miss..."--That goddamn musical that everyone at ho's (myself included) was obsessed with freshman year.
It's so true though. I'm 20 years old. Gonna live it up yo! :D
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