Aerosmith. That's what's up.
I quote them because I'm jaded. Ja-ja-jaded.
Basically, whenever my friends talk about getting married or having children, I want to scream. I hate hearing intelligent girls talk about these traditions like their lives won't be complete without them. One of my friends told me recently that if she had to choose she'd rather get married than finish her bachelor's. What century are we in?
I know that I'm twenty years old and in a few years these topics won't seem as alien as they do to me now. Yet I don't see myself settling down with anyone, ever. I've had major trust issues since my first boyfriend and I broke up about eight months ago. I believed in love when I was with him. Although I don't like to admit it, I honestly thought we'd be together forever
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Before that nightmare, my parents significantly shaped my view of marriage. Their divorce and quick remarriages were turbulent, to say the least. I know I'm fortunate in lots of ways but growing up with my mom and stepdad made me never want to be in their situation. Their children are the only thing holding their relationship together. It's hanging by a thread that I know will snap again sooner or later.
Maybe I should stop being so bitter about others' dreams because of my life experiences. What do you think?
It's not your fault that you feel jaded. I guess being open-minded is key. I find myself judging others for valuing marriage above an education as well. But it takes all types of people to make the world go 'round, ya know? I think we all, ultimately, want to love and be loved in turn. People pursue it differently, however. I sometimes pursue it by denying it...
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